Occasionally I have little moments of epiphany, and this one happened to be at an office party. All of a sudden I realized (now, on the last day of the semester and a couple months into my job here) that my life is charmed as it always has been, I have friends here now, new ones who like me and old ones who won't forget about me, existence seems to be full of lucky turns of fortune, and the future is bright. My bosses, my professors, my friends, my family, my roommates, are all full of goodwill, good sense, and positive forces. Their light is bright and it all shines upon me. And if perhaps there are a few things that aren't quite right yet -- if perhaps there are a few things in my life I would change -- it's okay. I have the patience to wait and the confidence to solve things and the support to really believe in what I can do -- and with all that, how can I go wrong, how can I not make everything all right in the end after all?

Did you mean your life has always been charmed, or that it is more charmed than it ever has been?

It always has been, really. I won't say that I haven't worked hard for some things, but circumstances have always made it fairly easy.

ah, i wish i had your positive outlook. i still feel quite restless here...yes, i believe that's the right word, restless, unsettled, as if i'm not supposed to be here (or, at least, as if i haven't accepted why i am here). here's hoping i find some charm in life. in the meantime, you give me some tips on how to do it :)

I'm sure it will all come together for you -- hopefully soon!